Another list huh...

Yeah, everything that was in me still is in me (do I want this? Honestly, no. Dishonestly? Yes, oh yes).

I never thought about it to the extreme, I guess- never quite followed the thread of thought to its end- I don't know how it'd end... I just knew it was going to end. Like everything else. Oh, very true.

I lived and dreamed and wished and yearned until the day it all came crashing down like a pile of spilling garbage bags from the back of the overloaded truck.

This is it, I guess. (But yeah, I'm only guessing here- I still am- I always will be.) The end and the beginning have come for me, and like everyone else, I know about the story I've to tell. Just that... maybe I'm one of the only few who can live and tell it at the same time.

23, yeah?

Twenty-three crazy, wacky, freaky metaphors.

I can't live this way anymore.

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23. I'm living on the highest cloud

22. of cotton candyfloss-pink.

21. I'm the red-haired girl

20. with the toothy smile,

19. the open heart

18. and the gaping, scarlet wound

17. in her chest.

16. Bullethole from her

15. lover boy,

14. torn memories

13. from the land of forevers.

12. Starry dreams and

11. pale moon-streaked skies,

10. sprinklings of diamond dust

9. and love pellets

8. falling down like tear-dropped rain.

7. The boy with the smile

6. and Milly with her neurotic cat.

5. My stargirl and orange love

4. and peaches' wish.

3. Sleeping in heaven and

2. dreaming of hell.

1. I don't know you.

Me neither.